Written for my son when he was seven
My son said
Daddy
Why does the rain fall from the sky?
And can you tell me
Why does the sun shine down
From up so high?
I said son
So many people think they know
But the real reason
Is just because the good Lord
Made it so
My son said
Daddy
When I fall down and hurt my knee?
Tell me why
Why all the pain, why does it bleed ?
I said son
We are all the same deep inside
That’s why I hold you
And softly wipe the tears from your eyes
My son said
Daddy
Why do you spend all your time
Doing all that you do
Making sure I am never blue?
I said son
You are everything to me
You are the spark that brings
The joy to my heart
My son said
Daddy
One day when you grow old and weak
I promise to take care of you
Just like you take good care of me
I said
Son
You are my very best friend
Thank you for your devotion
Which I will cherish until the end
There is so much love inside this child of mine
A Mountain strong and an ocean deep
A gift of life to make my life complete
He is all that I will ever need
And
There is so much love inside this child of mine
He is all I ever wanted in my life
So I write this song to let him know
A reminder of how much I love him so
Tuesday 30 March 2010
Wednesday 24 March 2010
To Whom It May Or May Not Concern (Letter From Beyond)
My current job brings me into contact with those young people and children that choose violence as a way of life. For many, they never get to gain an understanding of the pain and suffering that they inflict until they are sitting in the prison cell reflecting on their actions. With the recent death of a friends' son through violence of this kind I felt that I had to send another message to our youth.
To whom it may or may not concern
I write this letter to you from a happy place
I am sorry that I cannot be with you in person
And for a moment I was not certain
Just why I could not
I was lost
Now I am found
And homebound
So before I settle in
To what you may understand to be peace
I have a few words to convey
Thoughts that I need to release
You see my current journey was not planned
My destination is not on any map
I packed no suitcase
Carry no passport
For there is no border to cross
Although I do believe that I have crossed over
As I look down upon those that I have left behind
I see that they call me a fallen soldier
Yet as far as I am aware
I fought in no war
Actually
I am sure
That I carried no gun
Took no sides in any battle
And simply lived a happy life
With only everyday strife as my cross to bear
So I wonder now
What I am doing here
And in turn you may well wonder
Why I speak to you
What we have in common
What ties bind us together
What pleasures
What pains
Did we walk hand in hand
Through sunshine and rain
Did we love and laugh as one
Did we make plans
Was there a familiar song that we sang
I have had time to ponder these questions
And still have no answers
I hear them say that it was my time
But it wasn’t
At least not until you made the decision to make it my time
And I wondered why
You would do such a thing
As you now sit alone in your twelve by four
On B Wing
Do you wonder too
What you have done to my family
My friends
My woman
My child
Your mother
Your Father
Your brother who idolised you
Your girl
The witness who saw you
Rip open my stomach
And force your blade into my ribcage
Do you still consider
What you have done to me
What you have done to you
I float up and up
I will eventually reach the top
As you float down and further down
Your tears will continue to flow
As a reminder
Of your pride and foolish ego
Boy!
You were truly tripping out
Do you remember as clearly as I do
Your breas shouting the words
“Shank Him”
Of course you do
And I bet that you
Sit in that lonely cell
Wondering what your boys are doing now
I know
Because I can see
I’m the silent observer sitting in the tree
They’re going about their business
Searching for new recruits to initiate
Well yours didn’t go too great
Did it?
Don’t worry the pain has gone
My only regret was that I couldn’t say goodbye to my Pops and mum
And that I couldn’t say goodbye to my girl
Or my baby boy
Oh yeah
And that I couldn’t finish my exams
In my final year
Before you put me here
Did you know that I had a real good send off
Flowers and tears and all my friends were there
Felt sorry for my mums
With the crying and stuff
First time I've ever seen a tear from my Pops
But you know what
I hope things work out for you
From where I am
I can see that you are a nice guy
You just made a bad decision
Not sure if I should tell you this
But I overheard the judge say
That if you get found guilty
Then a life sentence is coming your way
Hey mate!
You better get used to that twelve by four
Cos’ the jury’s coming back through the door
Oh here we go
Damn
Guilty on all counts
25 to life
Minimum of 15
Bang goes the gangsta
And the gangsta’s dreams
But listen bro'
Just wanted to say
That I’d like to forgive you
For taking my life in this way
But I can’t
You see I didn’t do you any wrong
Who cares if you don’t know me
Or which ends I was from
You don’t own the ends
So there’s nothing to defend
Wanted to prove yourself and get a rep
Well listen cuz'
It’s not over yet
Your boys didn’t even turn up for the verdict
They’ve been there before
Straight up
They’ve heard it
Word for word
They’ve detached themselves
You’re expendable
Got no cash and no wealth
So they’re not holding on to a loser like you
They’re not going to visit where you’re going to
And where you’re going
You’re not the bad man
Don’t pick up the soap
You gets' me
You unnerstan'
But hey listen
I’m seeing some gates up ahead
That looks like St Peter waving
Damn!
St Peter’s a dread!
He’s calling me over
So I have to go
But I’ll come back in your nightmares
Each night
You dun know!
Yours Faithfully....
To whom it may or may not concern
I write this letter to you from a happy place
I am sorry that I cannot be with you in person
And for a moment I was not certain
Just why I could not
I was lost
Now I am found
And homebound
So before I settle in
To what you may understand to be peace
I have a few words to convey
Thoughts that I need to release
You see my current journey was not planned
My destination is not on any map
I packed no suitcase
Carry no passport
For there is no border to cross
Although I do believe that I have crossed over
As I look down upon those that I have left behind
I see that they call me a fallen soldier
Yet as far as I am aware
I fought in no war
Actually
I am sure
That I carried no gun
Took no sides in any battle
And simply lived a happy life
With only everyday strife as my cross to bear
So I wonder now
What I am doing here
And in turn you may well wonder
Why I speak to you
What we have in common
What ties bind us together
What pleasures
What pains
Did we walk hand in hand
Through sunshine and rain
Did we love and laugh as one
Did we make plans
Was there a familiar song that we sang
I have had time to ponder these questions
And still have no answers
I hear them say that it was my time
But it wasn’t
At least not until you made the decision to make it my time
And I wondered why
You would do such a thing
As you now sit alone in your twelve by four
On B Wing
Do you wonder too
What you have done to my family
My friends
My woman
My child
Your mother
Your Father
Your brother who idolised you
Your girl
The witness who saw you
Rip open my stomach
And force your blade into my ribcage
Do you still consider
What you have done to me
What you have done to you
I float up and up
I will eventually reach the top
As you float down and further down
Your tears will continue to flow
As a reminder
Of your pride and foolish ego
Boy!
You were truly tripping out
Do you remember as clearly as I do
Your breas shouting the words
“Shank Him”
Of course you do
And I bet that you
Sit in that lonely cell
Wondering what your boys are doing now
I know
Because I can see
I’m the silent observer sitting in the tree
They’re going about their business
Searching for new recruits to initiate
Well yours didn’t go too great
Did it?
Don’t worry the pain has gone
My only regret was that I couldn’t say goodbye to my Pops and mum
And that I couldn’t say goodbye to my girl
Or my baby boy
Oh yeah
And that I couldn’t finish my exams
In my final year
Before you put me here
Did you know that I had a real good send off
Flowers and tears and all my friends were there
Felt sorry for my mums
With the crying and stuff
First time I've ever seen a tear from my Pops
But you know what
I hope things work out for you
From where I am
I can see that you are a nice guy
You just made a bad decision
Not sure if I should tell you this
But I overheard the judge say
That if you get found guilty
Then a life sentence is coming your way
Hey mate!
You better get used to that twelve by four
Cos’ the jury’s coming back through the door
Oh here we go
Damn
Guilty on all counts
25 to life
Minimum of 15
Bang goes the gangsta
And the gangsta’s dreams
But listen bro'
Just wanted to say
That I’d like to forgive you
For taking my life in this way
But I can’t
You see I didn’t do you any wrong
Who cares if you don’t know me
Or which ends I was from
You don’t own the ends
So there’s nothing to defend
Wanted to prove yourself and get a rep
Well listen cuz'
It’s not over yet
Your boys didn’t even turn up for the verdict
They’ve been there before
Straight up
They’ve heard it
Word for word
They’ve detached themselves
You’re expendable
Got no cash and no wealth
So they’re not holding on to a loser like you
They’re not going to visit where you’re going to
And where you’re going
You’re not the bad man
Don’t pick up the soap
You gets' me
You unnerstan'
But hey listen
I’m seeing some gates up ahead
That looks like St Peter waving
Damn!
St Peter’s a dread!
He’s calling me over
So I have to go
But I’ll come back in your nightmares
Each night
You dun know!
Yours Faithfully....
Monday 1 March 2010
Desire
Desire or Love?
It was not love but desire
That lit our hearts that night
We can both make excuses but we know it’s true
You asked me if I loved you and I said yes
The heat of passion makes you say the strangest of untruths
Was that untruth so strange?
You knew it to be untrue and yet it did not deter you
From enjoying the pleasures of the evening
I simply replied with words that you wished to hear
I saw the satisfaction in your eyes knowing
That you held control over me
Enabling me to say and do as you pleased…..
I remember your taste
Just as your mind’s eye is filled with the memory of my lips
Climbing the inside of your thighs
Toward their destination which waited with an openness
Reminiscent of an oyster.
My search for your pearl
And the compulsion with which you aided my exploration
Was that love or desire?
It brought you to a higher degree of stimulation
So that the come was a thousand light years
From what you had hoped for
And me?
It was beyond the boundaries of my imagination
With a feeling of desire that intense
How could you want for love?
My desire was such that I took my time in pleasing you
In order to please myself
And you took time to feel each moment with a devotion
As strong as that of a mother to a child
Yet a devotion ever eager to continue its journey
Of impurity and rampant longings
And yet you still speak of love
Well love may come but only when desire has been exhausted
And for us it is still in its infancy
When we wish to take time for each other and not just for
The satisfaction of our libido
Then we may look in the direction of cupid’s arrow
Until then we are not yet ready for the depth of love
And denying this only adds to the lie
That there is more to us than sexual appetite.
It was not love but desire
That lit our hearts that night
We can both make excuses but we know it’s true
You asked me if I loved you and I said yes
The heat of passion makes you say the strangest of untruths
Was that untruth so strange?
You knew it to be untrue and yet it did not deter you
From enjoying the pleasures of the evening
I simply replied with words that you wished to hear
I saw the satisfaction in your eyes knowing
That you held control over me
Enabling me to say and do as you pleased…..
I remember your taste
Just as your mind’s eye is filled with the memory of my lips
Climbing the inside of your thighs
Toward their destination which waited with an openness
Reminiscent of an oyster.
My search for your pearl
And the compulsion with which you aided my exploration
Was that love or desire?
It brought you to a higher degree of stimulation
So that the come was a thousand light years
From what you had hoped for
And me?
It was beyond the boundaries of my imagination
With a feeling of desire that intense
How could you want for love?
My desire was such that I took my time in pleasing you
In order to please myself
And you took time to feel each moment with a devotion
As strong as that of a mother to a child
Yet a devotion ever eager to continue its journey
Of impurity and rampant longings
And yet you still speak of love
Well love may come but only when desire has been exhausted
And for us it is still in its infancy
When we wish to take time for each other and not just for
The satisfaction of our libido
Then we may look in the direction of cupid’s arrow
Until then we are not yet ready for the depth of love
And denying this only adds to the lie
That there is more to us than sexual appetite.
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