Temporary Plans

Waking on a Sunday morning
The feeling suddenly returns
Of a time when there was happiness
In a love that you still yearn
Days of gold now faded
Leave loneliness behind
Tears are never dried
Not even by the spring sunshine

Then slowly as a flower
You open to a new
And realize that summer
Is on its way for you
And once again the days
Of holding hands and long warm nights
Leave behind the memories
Of a love lost in flight

Here’s to the hopes that this one
Is the one that comes to last
So that the lonely Sundays
Are boxed away in the past
If not then not to worry
Enjoy it while you can
There’s something special even
In temporary plans.

Not Goodbye...See you Later

You still hold that glow
That magic glow
When you smile it shows
And for all the reasons that I fell
Your eyes tell me so
A look from you helps me to realise
That you are still the one
The chapter has closed but I’d like to believe
That our story has just begun

And I miss the laughter and the tears
That gave me a reason to hold you near
Now all I can do is comfort you from afar
As long as you know that wherever you are
My heart holds true to the promises it made
And the love that it feels will never fade

More than friends less than lovers
From now on we must be
Despite the fact I still dream you and me
And if I close my eyes and take the time
I smell your perfume as if you were by my side
So don’t think for a minute that I have let go
I have tried but my heart holds on to you so
I continue each day as if my life goes on
Still waters run deep and hide love that stays strong

So as we both now begin new chapters of our story
Let’s remember the pain and the glory
And the comfort that brought us both to each other
The passion we felt deep within one another
These words don’t do justice to how I really feel
Not even in heaven would my love be this real
So remember these words when you are lost and alone
In my heart is a place you can forever call home.

My Love is with You

Sometimes I close my eyes
And travel to a place
Where melancholy melodies
Fill the air and tame the space

And there I stay fulfilling dreams
That perhaps were once true
And sometimes I close my eyes
And my love is with you

Once I knew what comfort was
Within your arms and in your eyes
Now to find that sacred place
I search deep so deep inside

And memories that gave me hope
Return for a while at least
For a moment heaven is in view
And my love is with you

Dreams are dreams and stay that way
Life is touched for just a day
And all that we promised to be
We struggle now simply to see

Yet within the doubts and fears
Of rekindling all the worth
Comes the thought of nothing new
My love will always be with you

The Love You Share

It’s just the way that nature planned it
Everything going oh so fine
So
I just don’t understand it
When she turns around
And says goodbye

To much pressure from her people
Forever telling her that I’m no good
Well
Maybe I’m better off without her
If our love was strong
She would have understood

That there are good times
And bad times
And times when you just can’t go on
There are sad times and sunshine
But it’s the love that you share
That keeps it strong

There are good times
And bad times
And times when you can’t face the day
There are sad times and sunshine
But it’s the love that you share
That paves the way

Thought I would never be without her
Now I awake
And she’s not by my side
No
Got to start living life without her
It’s going to be hard
But I’ve got to try

Here’s a warning to young lovers
Take a little time to just understand
That
The things in life we all desire
Don’t come to you
Unless you whether the storm until dawn

I go to sleep at night
But she’s always on my mind
How do you erase true love?
I hope she finds what she’s searching for
But it won’t change the fact
That she’s not coming back

To those good times
And bad times
And times when you just can’t go on
There are sad times and sunshine
But it’s the love that you share
That keeps it strong

There are good times
And bad times
And times when you can’t face the day
There are sad times and sunshine
But it’s the love that you share
That paves the way

To go on

Ode to Jas

She has always been with us
She is music personified
She is our first love, a secret love,
A forbidden love
Yet she is loved all the same
Music personified

A melody that fills dreams
A rhythm that dances light between
Flame and shadow
The rapture of a smile returned
Music personified

Loved by all
Sometimes unaware of her influence
She stands personified
And our hearts beat to the twinkle of her eyes
Who is she?
She is a chorus of angels
She is the morning call of the songbird
A thousand other sweet sounds beyond imagination
She is a signature tune
She is music…

Old and Grey

I never noticed
Until my heart told me
That you were my life
Going through the motions
Separates us like oceans
Sometimes we don't realise
Then caught in the moment
I opened my eyes and
Saw you for the first time
All of my life I
Had waited for you
My dream come true

Isn't it tragic
That there isn’t more magic
In the world today
But there’s no need to worry
Or for us to hurry
We have forever and a day
I will still love you
Even when you are old and grey

Now that I’ve come home
You’ll never be lonely
Because I’m here to stay
I dedicate myself
To loving no one else
If you say that it’s ok
You said that you wanted
Us to be together
Like we used to be
There’s nothing I want more
We’ll even up the score
Make up for lost intimacies

But isn't it tragic
That there isn’t more magic
In the world today
(Girl) there’s no need to worry
Or for us to hurry
We have forever and a day
I will still love you
Even when
You are old and grey

Can I tell you something
You are the one thing
That stays on my mind
Before I close my eyes
I feel tingles deep inside
Of the loving kind
With my heart you can play
I’m falling more each day
In love with you and I
Don’t want it to stop
I’m floating on cloud nine
Knowing that you're mine (all mine)

But isn't it tragic
That there isn’t more magic
In the world today
Girl there’s no need to worry
Or for us to hurry
We have forever and a day
Because I will still love you
Even when
You are old and grey

We’ll take the magic carpet ride
Side by side
We will fly together
To the stars
We can walk hand in hand
Through our own Wonderland
We'll make our dreams come true
No matter where we are

Oh isn't it tragic
That there isn’t more magic
(Like we have)
In the world today
(Oh baby) there’s no need to worry
Or for us to hurry
We have forever and a day
I will still love you
Even when I’m old and grey

I will always love you
Even when
We are old and grey

Old Friend

Someone spoke your name today
Said that you were ok
They said you were doing fine
Having a real good time
And they went on to tell me that
You were happy and on track
So although I haven’t heard from you
I’m pleased to know that you pulled through

When I thought of you today
Just like I seem to often do
I think of all the funny things
That together we would do
And the promises we made
To stay forever as best friends
But I guess as time moves by
We started to make alibis

Now I hear you’re up on high
And soaring through the clear blue skies
I’m just a figment of your past
So distant and fading very fast
Still I’d like to hope one day
That your dreams may make way
Enough for you to think of me
And all that we used to be

But if for some reason you go on
And find that in your mind I’m gone
In my heart you will live on
Just like you do today

Take Her Back

Succumbed to her beauty
Allowed her to use me
She took my heart for granted
And tore my soul to shreds

But in-between the sadness
And the aftermath of madness
There was joy and gladness
In her eyes and in her bed

On the phone we’d talk for hours
On her birthday I’d bring flowers
Gentleman and charming
Around her I would be

She yearned for a real man
One whose mind could withstand
Her wishes and her demands
With a Lexus and two keys

She was teasing and pleasing
Always left me dreaming
Now I realise she was scheming
Just to please herself

So I gave all that I could
Because she knew that I would
Still she could not spell loyalty
Her needs surpassed all else

I wasn’t really foolish
And guessed she’d one day do this
But could not afford to lose this
Feeling that I’d found

So I kept on hanging
Sharing secrets that were damning
Hoping that our friendship
Was somehow heaven bound

But still I ask myself why
If she gave a good alibi
With saltwater filling her eyes
Then jumped into my sack

Why would I dismiss it
Still thinking of her sweet kiss
I’d want to run one more lap
And gladly take her back

This Child of Mine

Written for my son when he was seven

My son said
Daddy
Why does the rain fall from the sky?
And can you tell me
Why does the sun shine down
From up so high?
I said son
So many people think they know
But the real reason
Is just because the good Lord
Made it so

My son said
Daddy
When I fall down and hurt my knee?
Tell me why
Why all the pain, why does it bleed ?
I said son
We are all the same deep inside
That’s why I hold you
And softly wipe the tears from your eyes

My son said
Daddy
Why do you spend all your time
Doing all that you do
Making sure I am never blue?
I said son
You are everything to me
You are the spark that brings
The joy to my heart

My son said
Daddy
One day when you grow old and weak
I promise to take care of you
Just like you take good care of me
I said
Son
You are my very best friend
Thank you for your devotion
Which I will cherish until the end

There is so much love inside this child of mine
A Mountain strong and an ocean deep
A gift of life to make my life complete
He is all that I will ever need

And

There is so much love inside this child of mine
He is all I ever wanted in my life
So I write this song to let him know
A reminder of how much I love him so

To Whom It May Or May Not Concern (Letter From Beyond)

My current job brings me into contact with those young people and children that choose violence as a way of life. For many, they never get to gain an understanding of the pain and suffering that they inflict until they are sitting in the prison cell reflecting on their actions. With the recent death of a friends' son through violence of this kind I felt that I had to send another message to our youth.

To whom it may or may not concern

I write this letter to you from a happy place
I am sorry that I cannot be with you in person
And for a moment I was not certain
Just why I could not
I was lost
Now I am found
And homebound
So before I settle in
To what you may understand to be peace
I have a few words to convey
Thoughts that I need to release

You see my current journey was not planned
My destination is not on any map
I packed no suitcase
Carry no passport
For there is no border to cross
Although I do believe that I have crossed over

As I look down upon those that I have left behind
I see that they call me a fallen soldier
Yet as far as I am aware
I fought in no war
Actually
I am sure
That I carried no gun
Took no sides in any battle
And simply lived a happy life
With only everyday strife as my cross to bear
So I wonder now
What I am doing here

And in turn you may well wonder
Why I speak to you
What we have in common
What ties bind us together
What pleasures
What pains
Did we walk hand in hand
Through sunshine and rain
Did we love and laugh as one
Did we make plans
Was there a familiar song that we sang

I have had time to ponder these questions
And still have no answers
I hear them say that it was my time
But it wasn’t
At least not until you made the decision to make it my time
And I wondered why
You would do such a thing
As you now sit alone in your twelve by four
On B Wing
Do you wonder too
What you have done to my family
My friends
My woman
My child
Your mother
Your Father
Your brother who idolised you
Your girl
The witness who saw you
Rip open my stomach
And force your blade into my ribcage
Do you still consider
What you have done to me

What you have done to you

I float up and up
I will eventually reach the top
As you float down and further down
Your tears will continue to flow
As a reminder
Of your pride and foolish ego
Boy!
You were truly tripping out
Do you remember as clearly as I do
Your breas shouting the words
“Shank Him”
Of course you do
And I bet that you
Sit in that lonely cell
Wondering what your boys are doing now
I know
Because I can see
I’m the silent observer sitting in the tree
They’re going about their business
Searching for new recruits to initiate
Well yours didn’t go too great
Did it?

Don’t worry the pain has gone
My only regret was that I couldn’t say goodbye to my Pops and mum
And that I couldn’t say goodbye to my girl
Or my baby boy
Oh yeah
And that I couldn’t finish my exams
In my final year
Before you put me here

Did you know that I had a real good send off
Flowers and tears and all my friends were there
Felt sorry for my mums
With the crying and stuff
First time I've ever seen a tear from my Pops

But you know what
I hope things work out for you
From where I am
I can see that you are a nice guy
You just made a bad decision
Not sure if I should tell you this
But I overheard the judge say
That if you get found guilty
Then a life sentence is coming your way
Hey mate!
You better get used to that twelve by four
Cos’ the jury’s coming back through the door

Oh here we go
Damn
Guilty on all counts
25 to life
Minimum of 15
Bang goes the gangsta
And the gangsta’s dreams
But listen bro'
Just wanted to say
That I’d like to forgive you
For taking my life in this way
But I can’t
You see I didn’t do you any wrong
Who cares if you don’t know me
Or which ends I was from
You don’t own the ends
So there’s nothing to defend
Wanted to prove yourself and get a rep
Well listen cuz'
It’s not over yet
Your boys didn’t even turn up for the verdict
They’ve been there before
Straight up
They’ve heard it
Word for word
They’ve detached themselves
You’re expendable
Got no cash and no wealth
So they’re not holding on to a loser like you
They’re not going to visit where you’re going to
And where you’re going
You’re not the bad man
Don’t pick up the soap
You gets' me
You unnerstan'

But hey listen
I’m seeing some gates up ahead
That looks like St Peter waving
Damn!
St Peter’s a dread!

He’s calling me over
So I have to go
But I’ll come back in your nightmares
Each night
You dun know!

Yours Faithfully....

Desire

Desire or Love?

It was not love but desire
That lit our hearts that night
We can both make excuses but we know it’s true
You asked me if I loved you and I said yes
The heat of passion makes you say the strangest of untruths
Was that untruth so strange?
You knew it to be untrue and yet it did not deter you
From enjoying the pleasures of the evening
I simply replied with words that you wished to hear
I saw the satisfaction in your eyes knowing
That you held control over me
Enabling me to say and do as you pleased…..
I remember your taste
Just as your mind’s eye is filled with the memory of my lips
Climbing the inside of your thighs
Toward their destination which waited with an openness
Reminiscent of an oyster.
My search for your pearl
And the compulsion with which you aided my exploration
Was that love or desire?
It brought you to a higher degree of stimulation
So that the come was a thousand light years
From what you had hoped for
And me?
It was beyond the boundaries of my imagination
With a feeling of desire that intense
How could you want for love?
My desire was such that I took my time in pleasing you
In order to please myself
And you took time to feel each moment with a devotion
As strong as that of a mother to a child
Yet a devotion ever eager to continue its journey
Of impurity and rampant longings
And yet you still speak of love
Well love may come but only when desire has been exhausted
And for us it is still in its infancy
When we wish to take time for each other and not just for
The satisfaction of our libido
Then we may look in the direction of cupid’s arrow
Until then we are not yet ready for the depth of love
And denying this only adds to the lie
That there is more to us than sexual appetite.

The Poet – Part One

This is taken from a short story that I wrote back in 2004. It is the story of a poet who fights evil through words. I have had much criticism, both good and bad but have decided not to change it. This is the first time that I have published it pubically so I hope you like it and of course your comments are welcomed.


The Poet meets a traveller and tells his story.

“My rhymes tell of love and laughter
Virgin love from Cupid’s bow
Love that lasts forever after
Love that comes and love that goes
My words give life to those who hunger
For the one to bring the kiss
That they live and dream and wish for
The kiss that those without love miss
My rhymes tell of children playing
Innocently as they do
Until the world with her desires
Corrupt the child and turn them cruel
For children are all God’s creatures
Sadly none are born with wings
So on earth they must remain
Until the Satan takes them in
My rhymes warn of all these dangers
My pen flows with only truth
Of the past and of the future
Rhymes of fresh and rotten fruit
To reach my rhymes
You must have traveled
Just a little to comprehend
For I have seen the world’s four corners
And have journeyed to its end
From the ancient seven wonders
That existed long ago
To the mounts of the great Olympus
That myths and legends
Speak boldly so
I have seen and I have written
Of the loves and all the wars
Of the land when summers ended
Where iced rivers flow no more
Seas of blue surrounding islands
Beaches filled with bended palms
When the sea was more than angry
And forgot how to be calm
My rhymes tell of everyday
Trials and tribulations of my fellow man
Told in words with no maudlin
True to life on solid ground
Even though some flights of fancy
Have raised me to the clouds above
Where I could eavesdrop on the eagle
Whilst writing rhymes of turtledoves
And too my rhymes speak of courage
Under fire when all is lost
Giving tips on overcoming
Working for the underdog
I write of colours
Furious rainbows
Beauty that is almost impossible to describe
Gates of heaven
And walking steps
That lead to Eden and paradise
Time and space
No space for time
Ever rushing to and fro
I write of wanting to reach somewhere
Or no particular place to go
I write in rhyme and sometimes rhythm
For our lives are rhythm filled
We watch and wait whilst tapping feet
Our lives revolve upon treadmills
So music often fills my rhyme
And describes the way I feel
Whilst placing modern quill to parchment
I am bound to get my thrill
From melodic sounds and tones
Soothing the most savage breasts
My rhymes can pacify
Like lullabies put hearts to rest
And intriguing they are too
Drawing strangers to my side
So that they may gain a taste
And share in this world of mine
You see my dear sir
Grey you were
Before you sat upon this baked chair
Look at your hands
They are grey no more
There is colour in your hair
Your shirt is now a shade of blue
And matches sky as do your eyes
The sun still shines the sky’s not grey
So ask me why this is the way
As if by magic or hypnotism
You sit aghast at the feat
With mouth agape
Yet no sound comes
From behind your now white teeth
Your whitened jeans sit on beige shoes
A miracle I’m afraid not
You asked me
Of what I wrote about
I explained told you the lot
Except the part that is my favourite
You see my rhymes are full of life
And all they touch are given life too
That’s what makes me want to write
My rhymes fill darkened skies with starlight
Open flowers to full bloom
Rhymes I write can take you to the
Brighter side of a lonely moon
Whatever you wish to find in your life
My rhymes give but also take
Give hope and courage for the future
Take away the hurt and pain
So stranger now you know the secret
It was not you who sought me out
My rhymes spied you and heard your troubles
Of a life of pain and doubt
They have called you to relieve you
Of the guilt and make you clean
Live the words of rhyme that you hear
Live the words fulfill your dreams.”

And with that the stranger rose
Looked one more time at his freshened self
Then at me smiled
This time sweetly
Oblivious to all else
I watched him wander this time no meander
Off on his continued quest
Hoping he would heed the message
Knowing he was newly blessed
But my words were not really secret
The reason why they worked so well
Is because I am a poet
With a story I must tell.

Let Me Love You with My Words

Have I said how much you lift me
Elevate me to new highs
Have I said when you are with me
How I cannot disguise
Just wanting to be with you
Laying by your side
To fill the void I put to paper
The very thoughts within my mind

So let me love you with my words
Let my words replace my touch
So that with each word spoken
Comes a quiver to your heart
Let me tell of how I miss you
More than the day before
Let me love you with my words
And with each one love you some more

Have I said how your smile raises
My hopes when we are together
Have I said of how your touch
Sends a tingle to my soul
I dream of you beside me
In a moment of too much pleasure
As we both taste the desire
That we both wish to unfold

Let me love you with my words
As taboo as they may be
Close your eyes and sense the moment
Let the moment set you free
Imagine lips to skin so soft
And very gently placed
The warmth of one another
In a passionate embrace

Have I said of how your voice
Is as a songbird in the spring
Have I yet to say that I believe
That you must hide your wings
For when I think of you
I see an angel in my mind
Gentle and soft and full of grace
And so very kind

So let me love you with my words
And take away your pain
Let them sooth your weary day
And make you whole again
If I cannot be with you
I stand undeterred
Instead I give you my sweet song
And love you with my words

Liar

Shame on you
You’re at it again
You try your best
So tell me just when
You’re gonna give up this foolishness
And just quit
It used to work
But do you honestly expect
Us to believe in the things you say
Dreaming up your schemes at night
So that during the day
You can launch all your fibs
On an unsuspecting public
With your lips juiced up
Dripping with it all
Sometimes small white ones
Some ten feet tall
It’s a wonder how you manage
To get them all in your mouth
The things you say
Are totally without doubt
The biggest crap that anyone can bare
Don’t you know that by now
Your rhymes fall on deaf ears
No you can’t do
Delusional
Stop spilling the chat
Learn to keep your mouth shut
Talking the he said she said
Pure fabrication
Inventing yourself
Without justification
What did the world do to you
Did you get dissed in a pass life
Pray tell
What’s the real reason for your lies
And oh no
Here comes another one
Don’t waste your breathe
I’ve already got some

There yes I said it
Yes you are
You’re a liar and then some
The biggest one by far
Telling stories about people
How can that be fun
The friends that you have
Don’t know what you’re thinking
They sit around with you all day
Smoking and drinking
But you’re a smelt it dealt it
With an added twist
You smell the truth then twist it around
So that it sounds the lick
Thank God there’s no court room
Perjury beyond compare
You would need no prompting
If the judge said “Don’t you dare”
You’d be up on the stand
Talking ‘bout Tom Dick and Harry
And all the things you claim
They did last night with Sally
Talking ‘bout how you brought a house
With white picket fence
With earnings from your record deal
And brought a brand new Benz
You’d be making up stories
The types of tales you would spin
Would be really thick on plot
But on truth
Wafer thin
And in case you may think
That I’m like those other brothas
I’m brotha undercover
And you’ve just been discovered

Falsifying fabricating fictionalising
On your brother
You’re not prejudiced
You’d even lie about
Your sister and your mother
Telling us that your girl
Was a famous singer
Which girl
We’d go to raves
But you’d never ever bring her
So now here’s the coo
This is how I’m gonna drop it
All this lying that you’re doing
Please bro
You have to stop it

I turn a blind eye
I don’t personally mind
I like to see the look
Of the people that I meet
When they say that they’ve just left you
After hearing all your stories
But I absolutely
Positively
Refuse to take the bullshit
When you give me all the glory

Saying I did this
And I said that
Well let me tell you something
Enough is enough
I’ll put my foot in your rump
And then we’ll see
Just how much fun
You get from one lie
You make it seem easy
Well soon I’ll make you see
When happens when you spread rumours
Especially ‘bout me
Think about the consequence
I’m going to tell you so
You’re the kind of guy
That we all watch
On Jerry Springer’s show
The only way that you will
Ever make it on TV
Is if you don’t stop your lying
Carry on and you’ll see
But let me refresh your memory
In case it slipped your mind
Tell one more lie about me
I’ll stick my foot in your behind
Liar!

Sunshine Rain

It’s something that we can’t explain
Through joy and pain
We are sunshine rain
And I’ll never fall in love again
She’s my best friend
Until the very end

If anybody wants to know
I’m telling this to you
The heart and soul is true
No need to fall in love again
Give our fortune and fame
For the sunshine rain

Love isn’t what it seems
Like flowing through a stream
Sometimes just like a dream
Until you feel sunbeams

So if anybody wants to know
I’m telling this to you
The heart and soul stays true
With each day it passes through
I don’t need to fall in love again
Give my fortune and fame
For the pleasure and the pain
That is my sunshine rain

One More Day

Wish today could last
Not forever but just for one more day
Then I could say
All that I had to say
But time is the master
And without happy ever afters
All I can do
Is hope that you know
All that I have been through
Whilst missing you
And wishing that
Our paths had never crossed
So that the hurt could stop
And at the same time
Wanting to be with you
Like we used to
Just like we are today
As we sit here and reminisce
Try our best to forgive
I long for the moment to last
Maybe not forever
That’s asking for too much
But then one more day
Would not be enough